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(Absolutely the appropriate word)

You know that thing, where you have the internet and accidentally read some stuff and start self-diagnosing weird and unusual conditions? And then there's the next part, where you have to talk yourself down, because you don't have nose cancer or whatever, it's just WebMD or Wikipedia making you paranoid?


Like, when I was 19 and diagnosed as major depressive and started on medication, I ended up going to the doctor and telling her that the antidepressant was making me crazy in unfun new ways and I was pretty sure I was actually bipolar. So she ran me through some questions and yes, bipolar.

And a couple years ago I read this comedy article about fictional characters with undiagnosed mental illnesses and had a huge "UM..." moment and figured out I probably had schizoid personality disorder. Which I brought up when I started back on my meds and the therapist at my intake was like "yeah, it's on your chart from 2006...did they not mention that?".

Most recently there was that Criminal Minds episode with the girl with polycystic ovary syndrome and my doctor and I talked and the conclusion is I need to get an ultrasound, stat.

So. You know. Now there's this article on sensory processing disorder that's sounding REAL familiar and I basically feel like I need to never read anything about real life ever again.

(But seriously, my whole family has a weird and intense thing with food and textures. And lots of motion sickness/sleep disorders. And stress migraines/photophobia. And there's a creepy posture chart where the apparently fucked up version looks a lot like my x-rays.

You have no idea how much I DON'T want to have a family sit-down about who has been diagnosed with what and what that means for the Family Medical History. At least five of us are on psych meds for reasons we Do Not Talk About.)
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My dad always has a shit-ton of flash drives in a box on his desk, because he gets them as swag at conferences and stuff. So I grabbed a couple today, looking for an empty one to put his present on.

I plug the first one in, it’s not empty, so I’m about to close it when…I see a document labeled Will1.

Obviously you see a will, you open it, right? I have read/watched too many mysteries to NOT read a mysterious will.




…Obviously I googled her immediately. And I seem to have found her.

Why am I so sure, you might ask? Because her first name is spelled unusually (Karlye), she comes from the right area - which happens to be middle of nowhere Oklahoma, so not a huge pool of possibilities to start, and oh, one other thing: when I logged into Facebook for the first time in months, just so I could maybe see more of her profile, SHE HAD ALREADY SENT ME A FRIEND REQUEST EVEN THOUGH WE DON’T KNOW ANY OF THE SAME PEOPLE. EXCEPT, APPARENTLY, OUR DAD.




So I was venting to my best friend about the WTFness of it all and she thought she recognized the name, so she got on secret-sister’s Facebook.


Secret-sister is ~18, so was conceived about two years after my parents’ divorce and before he and my stepmom were really a thing. Which makes the secrecy SO MUCH WEIRDER.

I just. Does my grandma know?! Do I tell my brother? How do I bring this shit up without going into “I felt mystery-plot-device obligated to open this will, but that is not the point right now”?


[Note: Post copied from tumblr, because that is where I was when my feelings exploded. They have exploded approximately three more times since, most recent best summed up as "IT IS TWO DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS, AKA, THE LAST TIME THIS YEAR ME, MY DAD, AND MY BROTHER WILL BE IN THE SAME ROOM. AWKWARD SECRET-KEEPING OR EPIC SHITSHOW?"]
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He sang:
Our generation passed and died.
The killers bred in us the victims grew in us
Blood like water.
Mothers who married enemies.
We called out, "wheat!"
The echo came back, "war"
We called out, "home!"
The echo came back, "war"
We called out, "Jaffa!"
The echo came back, "war"
From that day on we measured skies with chains.


Now blooms the spring of the locust.
Over the dead nightingales
the night itself weighs and weighs.
The day inches to birth
while the shut and bolted door
of the sea
rejects us.

We scream.
We dream of weeping,
but tears refuse our eyes.
We twist our necks
in zero hurricanes.


But then why won't Eve eat of the fruit?

Why would Eve merely suppress her wishes,
regulate her steps?
Subdue her thirst?
Why would Eve be so compelled
to keep Adam moving around in the Garden of Eden
all their lives?


Oct. 6th, 2015 01:42 pm
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So Dewey's 24 Hour Readathon is Saturday the 17th. Anyone else planning on participating?


May. 3rd, 2015 04:12 pm
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Kind of! So I've been working on a recs project for, oh, months now, but I haven't been able to brain sufficiently to finish it. The way I structured it, though, means I really don't want to unlock it in its current state. Therefore! Compromise!

The actual, pretty, project-of-my-heart version will someday go live at [community profile] thisisalovesong. The off-the-cuff, just-made-it-past-the-brackets version will be posted intermittently at [ profile] lovesonginmyownway. I'm hoping eyes on it will motivate me to not fail at it quite so hard.
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Am now poking suspiciously at tumblr.

I did just post a bunch of photos of the gorgeous redbuds in my dad's front yard. If you have never seen a blooming redbud tree, you should definitely take a look! People talk up cherry trees a lot, but to me, nothing beats a redbud.

I am going to attempt Dewey's 24 Hour Readathon on Saturday! So I am stockpiling books. The problem with that is not reading the books nownowNOW. I've got a pile of Heidi Cullinan and Terry Pratchett and Wen Spencer and Jennifer Crusie to start me off, but we shall see what my craving's for on the day.

I will be posting updates on that - and apparently some minichallenges? - on Consume All the Things, which is also where I'm sequestering the stuff I'm doing for the 500 episodes and 100 movies memes.

Mixed Bag!

Mar. 4th, 2015 11:32 pm
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New Anne Bishop! Really liked it (not as good as the first, better than the second), and I freaking loved Hope. Actually trying not to think about it too much, because it's another year before the next book. I 100% had a private midnight release party, though, where I set an alarm for a quarter to midnight so I could hunt it down ASAP and read it immediately. Ugh, I just love this worldbuilding so fucking much.

I housesat for my dad last week, which afforded me the opportunity to play Saints Row IV. I bought the game of the century or whatever edition for like $8 in January only to realize, after two days of downloading, that hey, this game is not compatible with XP. That game is fucking awesome, except for the number of missions that require me to drive cars or motorcycles. Tanks and aircraft I can totally handle, but the "steer with A & D" mechanic is BULLSHIT. I failed Matt's loyalty mission upwards of eight times before I started clawing at my own face and had to stop, because I COULD NOT keep close enough to Nyteblade. Playing as the bisexual Latina President of the United States is seriously the best, though. And I would play the main Asha quest again just for the dialogue. ♥

I also got to spend the week hanging out with my cat and y'all, I keep forgetting how goddamn weird he is. Like, don't get me wrong, I couldn't have ended up with a cat better suited to me if I had designed him, but seriously. Giant fucking weirdo. He does this thing? Where he steals my elastic hairbands, but only if they're used and smell like my hair. And then he will carry them around and play with them and place them in the center of his food and/or water bowls. On the other hand, he is the chillest cuddler of a cat I've ever had. Most cats, you move more than twice and they are out, they can find a better place to sleep. With Fred, I can move me, I can move him, I can lean the chair back, whatever. He will legitimately lay on me for 6 hours or more. I say 6 hours because that is pretty much the longest I can have a cat on me and not fall asleep, but I have spent 12 hours in the recliner and woken up to find him in the same spot, so.

Just surfacing from a deep dive into Hobbit fandom. Or into Bilbo/Thorin, really. I kind of have a fandom hangover? From a poor dismount?

It's like you acquired a fuckton of delicious chocolate and then after you ate a bunch and it was amazing and you went for more, you found out that actually, you had eaten all the chocolate and all the enticing stuff you were staring at was in reality CAROB.

In other words, that feeling of "why does this story have so many fucking kudos when it is blatantly a poor imitation of the awesome story I read earlier" times a bunch of stories in a row = bitterness and ennui. And stalking keelywolfe and scarletjedi for updates.

Can't wait for Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt on Friday! Also excited for: Battle Creek (first ep free on Vudu), Community (March 17!), and CSI: Cyber, because I have a weirdly deep affection for James Van Der Beek? It's not even mostly Dawson's Creek related (I was definitely a Pacey girl); he just seems so willing to laugh at himself and it's really fucking charming.

I've been watching various episodes of QI and the Big Fat Quiz on youtube and being jealous of British game shows. American game shows do not get to tell that many dirty jokes. Noel Fielding requesting "a blowie from the puppet" to participate remains the best.

Currently looking through old ebook recs for authors I need to check for new books. Mary Calmes has something that looks awesome, but after her last few, I'm trying not to get too excited. Spotted an interesting looking Robin Roseau scifi on Amazon and am torn between "space trade and culture clashes are two of my favorites! ROWNT FOREVER" and lingering "it's a TRAP" feelings from the Madison Wolves series (FUCK that series, SO hard).

Fingers crossed for something good, because I am like...three disappointments away from a long cranky wallow in "shit I have read before that I know won't hurt me".
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Going through one of my periodic fandom-trauma induced download sprees. RPF fandoms in particular give me angst sometimes, guys. I just get superafraid of logging on and everything being GONE. Because, you know, SOMETIMES IT IS.

So I am currently downloading the shit out of everything/everyone I've ever liked in hockey RPF.

Relatedly, I need so much more Sid/Geno in my life. Just re-read Highway Unicorn and I love it/them SO FUCKING MUCH.
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I really fucking love Vudu, you guys. I know Walmart is terrible, so it burns to so strongly prefer their service, but its just so great for me. I love the design of the interface, I love the controls (scene selection is available for literally everything in my library that isn't a five-minute featurette!), I love the shitload of free first episodes I've collected. I love being able to share my shit with up to five people (note: works fucking great for movies - 75/76 viewable - not so great for tv - ~30/140).

I just fiddled with the closed caption options for the first time beyond turning them on (in my experience, much more accurate subtitles than broadcast, but I only use cc because I sometimes have trouble with dialogue, so). Turns out green text with a transparent background just instantly made my eyes feel better.

Now I'm going to go watch Anslo Garrick pt 1 for the umpteenth time, because the Braxton episode mostly felt like a pale imitation and now I have a craving.

Goddammit, y'all, I need so much Red/Liz fic. SO MUCH. Also, Hardison & Aram being bros. It would be fucking beautiful.


Jan. 28th, 2015 02:21 am
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I am in the last few days of my Amazon Prime trial (would love to have it - cannot afford it) and I am binge-watching Justified. I watched season one as it was airing but lost track of it after that.

It's weird, in that I would absolutely recommend it, but I wouldn't rewatch or want to own most of it. Each season is such a tight arc that it's hard to separate a single episode out. My preferences run much more toward stand-alones, where you should know the characters and setting, but it doesn't matter if you've seen the whole story so far.

I fucking love Loretta McCready, you guys. I have wanted to watch season two since that Girl in the War vid came out and it definitely did not disappoint. I love her, I love Mags, I love Carol Johnson telling Boyd and Raylan that their history sounds like a love story.

I really enjoyed the Drew Johnson storyline, but it did make it clear to me that while I love every single moment of Raylan and Boyd interacting, I have basically zero interest in Boyd otherwise. I fastforwarded through a fuckton of the Crowder Criminal Empire shit.

Part of that is probably bitterness, because Johnny and company use a lot of screen time I would prefer to spend with the Marshals, because there is never enough Art and Tim and Rachel (especially Tim).

There isn't a lot of fic, but a bunch of it is fucking amazing. I deeply enjoy how, about once a story, someone in the fic will stop and comment about how unfairly beautiful Raylan Givens is. Because fuck yeah, he is.

The amount of zombie/apocafic does put me in mind of astolat talking about Knocking Over the Table, how she basically had to end the world to give her pairing a chance at a happy ending.

I am so sad, thinking about that, that no show will ever be a crime drama for five seasons and then have an apocalypse hit in season six, because that genuinely sounds fucking amazing. Not even specifically Justified, just anything.


Jan. 17th, 2015 11:32 pm
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Love song progress: 6/83.

Poems: 1/?. (!)

Books: 2/52.

Movies: 9/100.

Episodes: 101/500.
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  • Burned through most of Jennifer Crusie's works and I want more. Really loved Bet Me, Agnes and the Hitman, Getting Rid of Bradley, and Welcome to Temptation. Liked some of the rest, disliked some, really disliked maybe two? It comes down to really liking her writing style but not always caring for her plots/characters.

  • Relatedly, have been dipping into mysteries/romantic suspense/romance. Guys, I still really like Charlaine Harris's mysteries, but I'm so angry about how she ended the Stackhouse series that I find it genuinely distracting. Made it through most of the Lily Bard series anyway.

  • Gave Julie Garwood's Murder List a quick read-through and it was okay. I very much prefer her historicals (The Bride is basically my favorite forever).

    That train of thought led to me reading Loretta Chase's Lord of Scoundrels for the fifteenth time and I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH. Jess and Dain are the fucking best. I have some more of her books on the Kindle, but I was spoiled by reading Scoundrels first and haven't ever gotten into most of her other books.

  • Re-read Linda Howard's Blair Mallory duo again. Am I the only one who feels like that was some kind of self-insert/Mary Sue thing? Don't get me wrong, I love them, but first-person POV is very weird for her, and Blair's life definitely has the fantasy feel to it.

    Want to read Open Season again, but can't find my copy, even though I can very clearly picture seeing it on a shelf, which means it definitely made the move to the apartment. Discovered while searching that I have two copies of both Drop Dead Gorgeous and Shades of Twilight.

    Picked up Ice and a couple of others in paperback at the used bookstore. LH is apparently one of those authors that doesn't get shared a lot online? People were offering her more "suspenseful" books like crazy, but not one person had Now You See Her and that is hands-down my favorite of hers. I actually bought that one for Kindle more than a year ago, bought a paperback copy used before that, and before that had it in hardback from a library sale.

  • Picked up a digital copy of my favorite Jayne Ann Krentz, Trust Me. The computer parts definitely feel a little dated, but I love Stark and Desdemona so much. I will adore forever the scene she makes in the hallway about her first orgasm. And the Wainwrights are great.

    Debating whether or not to dive into the Arcane Society novels. They might make a good transition back to sf/f, but there are a fuckton and I feel like I'll get burned out on psychics first.

  • Relatedly, someone please recommend me some urban fantasy where the fantasy part isn't a fucking secret. I am thinking specifically Kate Daniels-style, where the whole world has adapted to make room for magic. I am over secret societies and lone heroes on hidden quests. Do you guys remember how fucking amazing the first few Anita Blake books were, before the sex magic, when it was just a world where you could major in paranormal science and raise zombies for a job, because people needed wills clarified?


    Except I am so, so over vampires. And elves, 90% of the time. I want magic and monsters, not immortal angst.

  • Speaking of magic, Vudu was offering the first episode of The Librarians for free (also the first episodes of Haven, Helix, Bitten, Being Human, Game of Thrones - stuff has come and gone, but it is definitely worth a look). Dean Devlin! Christian Kane! A show that feels very much like Warehouse 13!

    I am very much not sold on the Serpent Brotherhood, their apparent Big Bad - I like Du Lac in the broad strokes, but come on, an Arthurian threat and your Head Evil is named DU LAC? Lamia is just a hot mess of a character for me right now. I don't know if it's the acting/accent or the writing but I find most of her stuff unwatchable.

    IDK, I like the show so far, will watch more.

  • I want more Z Nation (haven't seen the finale yet!), but about 1000% less Citizen Z. He works best as a framing device/deus ex machina, please stop giving him plotlines. You can replace all of his stuff with MORE 10K. He is the best and I love him and I want him to run back into sniper girl and for them to murder the shit out of things together.

    I think this is a show that fucks up a lot, but also does some really interesting stuff? Like, a bunch of the Murphy stuff is dumb, many of the plots of the week are pretty dumb (radioactive zombies! zombie tornado!), but everything that wasn't Murphy in the shooting contest episode, for example, was amazing - grief, PTSD, disregard for human life/death, awesome teenage snipers competing with each other and having a really understated zing of attraction. I'm actually really impressed that they're willing to drop characters as quickly and unexpectedly as they have, that Cassandra's Secret Shame has actually been an ongoing thing, that they are showing a legitimate range of responses to trauma (flashbacks, drug use, emotional numbing, alienation, formation of intense bonds, exclusive focus on a self-assigned "mission").
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  • How have I not read Elizabeth Moon's Once a Hero before? I actually had a paperback copy of it to match my ebook. It was kind of lovely. I didn't read the last two or first three of the series, because I am kind of burnt out on conspiracies and corruptions, but you guys! Awesome ladies of color fighting space pirates! Some of them awesome older ladies! Maybe skip Once a Hero if you have noncon issues (it's nongraphic and in the past); DEFINITELY skip the sequel if you do (still not very graphic, but there is a fuckton of it in a particular storyline).

  • Bitter because everything I want to read comes out in March. Shelly Laurenston, Anne Bishop, Heidi Cullinan, seriously, EVERYTHING.

  • Burn for Me by Ilona Andrews is fucking awesome, you guys. I put it off for a while because the description was super romance novel-y, but that was a mistake. There will definitely be a romance eventually, but this book was way more focused on "save the family business, catch the murdering narcissistic pyromage", which I am WAY more into. The worldbuilding is amazing, the badass mother and grandmother are amazing, the weird feral-cat weapon of mass destruction that is our (eventual!) romantic lead is amazing. RECOMMENDED.

  • So I have been into Wen Spencer for a long time, and then I peaced out mid-Wolf Who Rules and never finished the series and now I'm thinking it may have just been bad timing, because I gave it another shot and I am fucking in. It may have been fear of an impending love triangle that made me bow out before? But it turns out elves have a whole poly setup that is much more comfortable for me. I should have trusted you, Wen Spencer! I am sorry. Now give me more books, because I have a lot of feelings. Like, a whole fuckton of feelings about the nature documentary sideplot in particular, and about Pittsburgh in general.

    But seriously, that short story about the morning show: I would read a whole fucking book. I would buy the eArc of that book, and tell all my friends, and please please give me that book.

    Also, what the fuck is going to happen to Tommy's forbidden baby? Also, am I crazy or did Stone Clan's resident nutbag do something seriously magical to his lady's baby? Also, I need Tinker to find out about her biosibs immediately. Seriously, WHAT IS UP with all the cliffhanger-y baby drama, I need so many answers/reaction shots.

  • Speaking of Wen Spencer, Eight Million Gods is relevant to several people's interests: Nikki, a writer on the run from the controlling and powerful mother who has institutionalized her repeatedly (she has hypergraphia), finds out that her novel in progress - including the brutal murders - is actually happening. Set in Japan, it does some neat/horrifying stuff with mythology (the part where the mostly-villain burns out a succession of shrine maidens as insufficiently powerful vessels was pretty messed up) and with Nikki's powers/limitations.

  • So I finally read all (well, all but book 10) of the Chronicles of Elantra and they were mostly good - A+ worldbuilding - but oh my god, do not read them in one go. By book 8, I was definitely losing patience with the climactic battle/epiphany scene - seriously, I will read your badass boss battle OR your intense emotional journey, stop mashing them together - and I hit the fucking wall with book 9. Which sucked, because that was potentially amazing, but the familiar + the ritual + the lost children + Kaylin's complete inability to prioritize "massive danger to multiple people if action isn't taken basically immediately" over "that person on the ground over there needs my help!"...I can't even. You needed to do those two at a time AT MOST.

    Also, that is the creepiest fucking love triangle in the world. And somehow the immortal, unaging, sinister slumlord isn't the creepiest option! Because here is the thing with Severn: he is already in love with her at the beginning of the first book. Therefore, he either fell in love with her while CANONICALLY STALKING HER FROM THE SHADOWS FOR YEARS or SOMEHOW EVEN CREEPIER, fell in love with her WHEN SHE WAS THIRTEEN AND HE WAS EIGHTEEN, after being her BIG BROTHER/PSEUDO-PARENT SINCE SHE WAS FIVE. I am going all in for the slumlord, y'all, because what the sparkling fuck.

  • For real, I want that Shelly Laurenston book so bad. I am super into her female characters, especially the nonhuman ones. For example, Blayne* is the perky, cheerful, matchmaking heroine in the series and yet it is completely believeable when she brutally murders a bunch of attempted kidnappers, because her mom got hunted when she was a kid, so her dad made sure she could defend herself! Also, female friendships! Female friendships that are more than convenient author-excuses for talkin' 'bout men! That are actually way more about roller derby and barhopping and dragracing and family and backing each other up!

    *Of Beast Behaving Badly, which I was going to link, but 1) ick, the cover - Blayne's black and 2) eurgh, the description - he does not "shadow her around New York", she talks him into a coaching arrangement, and most importantly, Bo is 100% not "smooth-talking". IN THEIR FIRST INTERACTION, SHE IS CONVINCED HE IS A SERIAL KILLER. Reproduced behind the cut, because it is my favorite: )

    Basically, Bo is like someone combined fandom!Sidney Crosby and the Hulk and it is pretty great for me, but 90% of the rest of the characters hate him, because somehow a laser focus on winning, a super intense commitment to scheduled routines, and the ability to hurl grown men across hockey rinks at whim do not net you a lot of fans. Just, you know, my unending love.

  • I dipped back into some YA (nothing I hadn't read before) and watched some stuff and guys, I spend a lot of time just baffled by some of these high school experiences. Are school nurses really a common thing? I did three different school districts and they were never a thing.

    And seriously, are most people getting sex ed? We never even got the basic health lecture about changing bodies or whatever that I keep seeing in stuff. I have LITERALLY never gotten a sex talk from ANYBODY. There was a "why are my boobs different sizes" conversation with my mom when I was seven or eight that she found hilarious and I found spectacularly unhelpful (my mom doesn't really have boobs), and an excruciating but thankfully brief explanation on menstruation from my dad's girlfriend in probably sixth grade, and that was IT.

    My sex education has all come from you, Internet. And not the cool helpful version of you that includes Scarleteen. The porn you.

    For everyone wincing at the screen right now, let me make it worse. I was definitely one of the better-informed girls at my school, because I did have the Internet, and privacy. Oh, and romance novels. There was a lot of unsafe sex at my high school, y'all, and at least some of it was not intended to be that way.
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Reading so much m/m, omg. How to Raise an Honest Rabbit and Blackbird Knitting by Amy Lane I didn't particularly care for. Her Behind the Curtain was better.

Anne Tenino's Poster Boy was good, as was her short from the Haunted Blender anthology, Horny. I totally hope she pulls a Whitetail Rock and turns that 'verse into a whole thing, btw. The mythology was great.

Read the latest Mary Calmes and was disappointed, but it wasn't the hot mess that Floodgates was. Turns out Sinnerman falls firmly middle of the pack for the Warder series, in terms of quality. Reread Timing, After the Sunset, Cherish Your Name, and Acrobat to remind myself that I really do love her.

Oh! The latest Lyn Gala is fucking amazing and I highly recommend it. Assimilation, Love, and Other Human Oddities. Cannot wait for the next one. It is so fucking good for my xenokink heart, you guys, ROWNT ARE THE BEST. ONDRY'S POV IS THE BEST. EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS BOOK IS THE BEST.

Heidi Cullinan's latest, Tough Love, was pretty good; I didn't like it as much as the preceding book, but a lot of that is probably my casino/logistics feels. I did have to check out for a big chunk of the big emotional unburdening scene because explicit needleplay makes me yeesh.

Kendall McKenna's newest addition to the Strength of the Wolf series was really good for big chunks (new guys comes in and cleans house is a weirdly big trope with me, I'm discovering), but felt like it got a bit muddled toward the end.

FINALLY read Xanthe's Ricochet and enjoyed it overall (didn't have to skip big chunks like I did Coming Home!), but the spoiler billionaire played weirdly for me. Would absolutely buy another book in the series, although not the direct sequel about the widowed sub events seemed to set up. That, I would skip.

Read MJ O'Shea's Loveblood and it was superweird, in that it was an a/b/o fic with fade-to-black yet still alluded to knotting? I am not sure how that reads if you're not familiar with the trope. I am also not sure what the hell was up with the pacing in that book. There was a fuckload of pining, but the obstacles got cleared up real fast once the alpha had one conversation with his parents about a fact he'd known apparently for months. Also there's a whole orientation swap that never really gets explored/explained. Would not recommend.

Currently deep in a pile of Megan Derr. Sad forever that Midsummer Baker and The Jewels of Bangkok aren't full-length novels, because I heart them deeply. I like Stone Rose a lot; Poison made me crazy. The villain literally tells someone her motive and he spends like two chapters going NO, that CAN'T be what she meant! I couldn't even with that. Also, do not read that shit out of order because a big chunk is devoted to a couple from previous books. The Bastard Prince was pretty good for the most part; I called most twists ahead of time, but that may just be my extensive soap opera background. I really liked Of Last Resort - seriously, you guys, she gives such good worldbuilding - but not In Despair. Torn on whether or not to read With Pride. The King's Harem was good, although I wish we'd gotten more Fahima, because I love her.

Still love Dance with the Devil - and that 'verse - the most.

ETA: Expanded/error corrected now that I'm not on my phone.
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So, now I'm super into a trope that doesn't seem to even exist on the AO3. It's called Sudden Game Interface and I am jonesing so hard for more of it, in all the fandoms. For example, I would read the FUCK out of Allison Argent wakes up early/mid-season one and discovers the supernatural via accidentally entering combat with Scott (they belong to opposing factions!) instead of making out with him as intended. Alternately, Stiles munchkining everything would also be amazingly good for me.

Anyway, most of the fics I've read have been Naruto or Harry Potter, so y'all are getting recs today. All WiPs, and all gen thus far.

Naruto: Ramen Days by Rathanel - "After dying at the end of the Sand-Sound Invasion, Naruto finds that his life is governed by a strange set of rules that he is still trying to figure out. VideoGame!Naruto"

The fic that got me into this! There's a recruitment mechanic that's pretty amazing (accidental Hyuuga conscription!) and I have to give Rathanel a lot credit for making the discovery of a savepoint heart-rending instead of a way to cheat over certain stations of the canon.

Naruto: The Gamer Files by Maxfic - "Naruto has always had video games to fall back on growing up while the rest of the village pretty much treated him like garbage. What happens when Naruto wakes up to find his life has become one of the video games he loves so much. Naruto/The Gamer crossover."

There are so many stats in this fic, guys, but I love it so much anyway. I get excited every time I see the "A special skill has been created through a special act" thing - Maxfic mixes canon and original skills in a way that feels very organic and realistic.

The Adventures Of Harry Potter, the Video Game: Exploited by michaelsuave - "Harry Potter catches Voldemort's AK to the noggin only to find out that his life is a video game and he forgot to save. So what does he do? Does he return on Hard mode and work for the challenge? Heck No! Harry uses every exploit, grind, or underhanded tactic he can get his hands on. His life may be a video game, but nobody plays Harry Potter; Harry's going to exploit the system."

This is very much a comedy fic and I heart it. There's a cat battle arena featuring the terrifying Mr. Tibbles! I am looking forward to Hogwarts so fucking much, you guys.
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You know, Amazon's second stab at ebook libraries. Personally, I'm finding it a fuck of a lot more useful than the Lending Library.

I don't think I'd pay $9.99 a month every month, but I HIGHLY recommend at least giving the free trial a whirl, especially if you like queer and/or indie ebooks. I've picked up a bunch of stuff - since I don't have wireless access, I've been using the apartment complex's computer to download the allowed 10 books to USB, return them, and download 10 more, repeat as needed. When your Kindle syncs, all books not currently checked out will be removed from your device.

I read a few articles about how the authors are getting paid and it looks like some people get paid as soon as the book is downloaded, but a lot don't receive payment unless the book has synced past 10%?

Recommendation time! I would definitely suggest getting all four anthologies Megan Derr has made available, since they're normally on the higher end (for m/m - the f/f book is right on average). If you have an interest in Robin Roseau (TRAP!), I would grab them on a trial basis, because, as I've ranted before, there is EXTREMELY shady stuff re: consent. I won't lie; I'm still acquiring her books, because MAYBE THIS TIME. I like the writing! It's just that inevitably, the relationship dynamic will take a turn that enrages me (FREE MICHAELA).

Go the Fuck to Sleep is available! I Think I Am In Friend-Love With You was fucking adorable. I grabbed a bunch of meta-fantasy, like NPCs, The Dark Lord's Handbook, Off to Be the Wizard, and Critical Failures (all as yet unread).

Evan Currie, aka Tenhawk, has a lot of books on offer. I'd recommend Steam Legion in particular. Seal Team 13 made me sad, but that's probably because I'm emotionally attached to the fanfic version, which has Xander and logistics and ALL the crossovers (Darien from Invisible Man, Sara from The Craft, Sam from Supernatural, Dade from Hackers, Jake from Jake 2.0, and others all on a special monsterhunting squad? MY BELOVED FOREVER).

Handily, if you search an author name instead of going to their author page, the filter options on the left will let you isolate Kindle Unlimited eligible books, if any qualify.

ETA: Also, there is just a fuckload of porn. So if you crave some centaur gangbangs or gay Krampus action or forbidden triceratops love, but don't want it showing up in your Kindle items forever, Kindle Unlimited is THERE FOR YOU.
strina: text only "age of the geek, baby. we run the world" (text - age of the geek)
Am I the only one who feels like visiting the AO3 without a specific story/pairing/fandom in mind is a lot like grocery shopping when hungry? Like, you just end up throwing everything in the cart because it sounds good at the time.

Brought to you by a massive downloading binge that included The Social Network, Homestuck, Haven, Leverage, hockey, Lost Girl, and Oglaf.

I am back to burning through fandom after fandom, btw. My attention span is always fucked up when I'm sad; I'm either obsessive or unable to settle.

I've been trying to channel the butterfly phase positively by working on finally getting my mobi files into a proper archive. It's been a mixed bag. For one thing, I have a bunch of stuff that I've downloaded, but I also have fic from at least three other people's collections and I only know where I got two of those. For another, it is fucking four gig of fic in ~215 fandoms.

I've also been working on the [community profile] thisisalovesong thing and it is...daunting. Fandoms like Andromeda or Avatar or That 70s Show are easy, because there's that one defining fic, but then there are fandoms like Homestuck where I have multiple pairings I love, all with fic I love, and it gets hard.

Just got Hannibal out of brackets (Della19 narrowly defeats emungere and hito). Staring at Naruto in despair, because it has the best tropes, and that is the worst for me (peggy sue vs. sudden game interface? WHO CAN CHOOSE).

Relatedly, michealsuave just updated The Adventures of Harry Potter, the Video Game: Exploited and it is pretty amazing.


Sep. 3rd, 2014 07:39 pm
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So I was looking for an empty flash drive at the house - my dad gets them as swag at conferences so he has like a full dozen in a bin on his desk.

And then I found his porn stash on one of them.

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So I've spent the last week in Stephanie Plum fandom and I need recs, guys. So much of it is bad and the worst I can't even make fun of properly because the author's dead. Oh my god, het fandoms, why so terrible.

Also there is a story I need desperately but I don't think it exists: the one where Ranger has a tracking kink, like that Social Network fic with Eduardo's heart monitor. There are so many fics where he just tracks her movements whenever he's even curious and I want it to be a thing for him.
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So I am doing a Thing. Fingers crossed that it will end up awesome. If anyone wants to watch me flail at it, or just wants to bookmark it for later, it's at [community profile] thisisalovesong.
strina: text only "age of the geek, baby. we run the world" (text - age of the geek)
Lomonaaeren is on the AO3, too! So anybody who loves Harry/Draco, but hates PREPARE FOR A BEAUTIFUL ONCOMING STORM OF EPICNESS. Not all of her fics have been ported over - is clocking in at 318 stories while the AO3 is showing 234 - but it's still a couple million words of awesome. Like, literally. As in, when I did a spotlight list of my favorites in 2012, she was clocking in at 218 stories and 3.7 million words posted in under five years. She is an extraordinary machine.

Apparently she joined a while ago? But since ff is the third easiest archive to download from (AO3, then TtH, then ff, because every downloader ever interfaces with ff), I never really had a reason to look for her elsewhere and then I google searched because I was too lazy to pick her profile out of my favorites and bam!

Anyway, I have to quote my previous rec here: "I also find her endlessly fascinating...she writes in only one fandom, and 95% of her fics are the same pairing, yet there's such a breadth to her work. She's written, what, four or five Draco-is-a-Veela stories? But Veela Struck isn't like the Silence trilogy isn't like Jericho Rose isn't like A Year's Temptation. There's a rape recovery story, a story about two survivors bonded in trauma, a steadfast and unrequited devotion becoming new love story, a story about circumstance and inevitability and incompatible obligations. I love that a lot, the way she keeps turning the ideas that interest her over to find new angles instead of giving up on them after a try or two."


Also if you dig Harry/Draco/Snape, enjoy at least half a million words of poly goodness.

Now I'm going to go read some Benevolently Snarky Dark Lord Harry, because it is amazeballs.
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Like, I have not historically had the stamina to mod something like a big bang (I very much want to someday, or rather, I want someone to do a recs big bang and I think I am the only one who wants that, and therefore). So I shouldn't be shouting things at my screen quite so much.


And if you ARE going to make me link to an entire month instead of a single neat post, please make all posts FIT IN ONE MONTH. There are only a handful of bangs where they legitimately NEED multiple posting months and I haven't even looked at those bitches yet!

On the other hand, GUYS. Did you know that South Park fandom has an AMAZINGLY WELL-ORGANIZED big bang? I LOVE THEM. They're on friggin' round five! Well, technically, three - they do a big bang, then a reverse bang, then a big bang, etc. SOUTH PARK FANDOM. NEVER SAW THAT COMING.

On the other other hand, there are so many big bangs that have zero rounds completed even though they'd gotten all the way to artist claims and it just makes me sad.
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Still editing, but I don't want this to be yet another thing I private-post and forget about.

So fucking many, for real. )

The not-quites. )
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I saw someone linking to my Big Bangs, Baby! post and mentioning how out of date it was, so of course I immediately started making a new one. I feel weird about it, though? Like, I haven't updated my list in three and a half years, but the other lists I've looked at have collectively added about 20 bbs to my total. It's one of those things where I'm convinced there's a better resource that I'm missing, because the alternative makes no sense to me.