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THESE ARE NOT THE GOOD FEELS, BASICALLY
I am so full of fandom feels, you guys. Like, I need scads of OTT epics with h/c and angst and misunderstandings immediately but they are nowhere to be found feels. THE SAD, DESPERATE, PSYCHOTICALLY HOPEFUL FEELS.
Like, you know that slow-motion NOOOOOOOOOOOO when something falls that you desperately wish you could stop but know you have no chance of catching. My voice of reason is doing THAT "no" in the back of my head because I keep accidentally pimping myself into fandoms where I have ALREADY EXHAUSTED MY POSSIBILITIES. Like Winter's Bone and The Sentinel and FUCKING VIEWFINDER, ARE YOU KIDDING. I EVEN TRIED FF.NET AND THERE ARE ONLY FIVE FICS OVER 10,000 WORDS AND *THREE OF THEM ARE IN FRENCH* AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE THE FIC IIIIIIIS FOR THIS FANDOM, I ONLY KNOW IT IS NOT ANYPLACE I AM FAMILIAR WITH. ALSO I AM PRETTY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH ASAMI'S EVERYTHING WHILE AT THE SAME TIME I WOULD LIKE ANOTHER 100,000 WORDS OF IT, PLEASE.
What's worst? I know as soon as I stop clawing pathetically at my monitor for giant id-ficcy rescue-from-Hong-Kong fic (for real, I would read the shit out of some healing cock fic set after that arc, EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING IS RIDICULOUS ANYWAY) and Sentinels-are-known AUs full of LOGISTICS and DESTINY (...I want Keira Marcos to write more of eveything all the time, basically) and soppy domestic amazingness where Ree marries Gail and possibly joins the army...
I'm going to fall straight back into wanting fic I cannot even begin to coherently look for: Naruto & Shikamaru = platonic bros of getting shit done.
I may imprinted on Motivation like a baby duck. And then found Ramen Days by accident and holy fuck, I need more of it for always. It is like the BEST buddy cop mashup of all TIME. The loud apparent idiot who will train 'til he passes out! The world's laziest supergenius! THEY SHOULD TRY TO MENTOR THE KONOHAMARU CORPS TOGETHER IN MEMORY OF HIRUZEN/ASUMA RESPECTIVELY. OR KILL AKATSUKI OR TAKE OVER THE WORLD OR FORM A TRAVELLING CIRCUS, I DO NOT CARE, MORE PLEASE.
Like, you know that slow-motion NOOOOOOOOOOOO when something falls that you desperately wish you could stop but know you have no chance of catching. My voice of reason is doing THAT "no" in the back of my head because I keep accidentally pimping myself into fandoms where I have ALREADY EXHAUSTED MY POSSIBILITIES. Like Winter's Bone and The Sentinel and FUCKING VIEWFINDER, ARE YOU KIDDING. I EVEN TRIED FF.NET AND THERE ARE ONLY FIVE FICS OVER 10,000 WORDS AND *THREE OF THEM ARE IN FRENCH* AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE THE FIC IIIIIIIS FOR THIS FANDOM, I ONLY KNOW IT IS NOT ANYPLACE I AM FAMILIAR WITH. ALSO I AM PRETTY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH ASAMI'S EVERYTHING WHILE AT THE SAME TIME I WOULD LIKE ANOTHER 100,000 WORDS OF IT, PLEASE.
What's worst? I know as soon as I stop clawing pathetically at my monitor for giant id-ficcy rescue-from-Hong-Kong fic (for real, I would read the shit out of some healing cock fic set after that arc, EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING IS RIDICULOUS ANYWAY) and Sentinels-are-known AUs full of LOGISTICS and DESTINY (...I want Keira Marcos to write more of eveything all the time, basically) and soppy domestic amazingness where Ree marries Gail and possibly joins the army...
I'm going to fall straight back into wanting fic I cannot even begin to coherently look for: Naruto & Shikamaru = platonic bros of getting shit done.
I may imprinted on Motivation like a baby duck. And then found Ramen Days by accident and holy fuck, I need more of it for always. It is like the BEST buddy cop mashup of all TIME. The loud apparent idiot who will train 'til he passes out! The world's laziest supergenius! THEY SHOULD TRY TO MENTOR THE KONOHAMARU CORPS TOGETHER IN MEMORY OF HIRUZEN/ASUMA RESPECTIVELY. OR KILL AKATSUKI OR TAKE OVER THE WORLD OR FORM A TRAVELLING CIRCUS, I DO NOT CARE, MORE PLEASE.