I Am Sad

See, I was looking at this post Laura and I have going, with our ideas for possible lists, and. I am sad. Because much as I would like to, I can't do some of those. Because I'm fair to certain sure that I can't come up with 50 stories for them.

( Lists I Should Probably Give Up On )

I'm trying to finish the f/f list, but it feels like work at this point. Damn me and my standards! See, it's the same thing that happened when I did the het list; because of the title, I don't want to just put a lot of random hook-up stories on there. I mean, I've got the Zoe/B'Elanna story, because it's damn cool, but other than that. I also added a bunch already today.

I want some good Abby/Kate. And more good Abby/Ziva. And god, there should be more Rory/Paris. And I'd 'bout kill for truly good Polly/Mal. I mean, there's Three Scenes That Could Be a Beginning, but that's the only one I've seen that's made me squeeful.

Read Bianca/Kendall this morning. Want Bianca/Maggie and Kendall/Greenlee. All I can seem to find is Bianca/Lena and Bianca/Sarah. I'm a BAM girl, dammit! The only bit of fanfiction I've ever written was Bianca/Maggie, back during the Jonathan's-a-woman-beater thing.

The Abyss Stared You Down

( Dark stories. )

50 Ways to Love Thy Enemy

( Stories pairing adversaries. )

50 Times Aliens DIDN'T Make Them Have Sex

( Stargate Atlantis gen. )

My SOUL Is Crying

Helpless, bitter tears.

I just finished four lists! I don't need to start another...OH MY GOD. NINE? I really just?

This is going to end with me frothing at the mouth.

I HATE MYSELF AND I WANT TO DIE.

That is 450 stories. In addition to the roughly 580 stories I've already recced (allowing for re-recs). And then there's the f/f list, so that's another 50.

Ahahahaha. I am apparently a masochist.

It's just. I looked at my imr tag, to see what needed finishing, and there was the f/f list, and a few lists that I may or may not ever be able to finish, as I only started them in that first flush of "yay! new thing!", and so I worked on 50 Girls Who Love Girls, and then I got bored, and went and looked at that post, and. I just started a few! And then I read trinityofone's new fic, Sons of Adam and thought "Book!" and I remembered all those stories I had for Epistolary and then it snowballed and now! NINE.

Quit. Life.