Shut Up, and Let Me See Your Jazz Hands

New Kindle is named Metis, because when I find a naming schema I like, I will run it into the goddamn ground.

24 items into a Derek/Stiles list, because I am just so full of feelings and using other people's rec lists keeps biting me in the ass. There are about ten stories that I hate? But if I see a link I follow it, because I cannot remember I've read them, let alone that I hate them. It is a fandom with a lot of tropes, ok, and sometimes a new story feels familiar because tropes and sometimes a story feels familiar because it is the one you wanted to throw across the room.

But yes, new list, finally. I feel bad that I haven't posted one since fucking March? But getting a Kindle radically changed the way I interact with fandom at large and I was trying to keep reccing without adjusting that at all and it got horrible and frustrating and I just needed to not.

I am toying with doing a couple of single author rec lists because Lomonaaeren, for example, has written 218 stories in less than five years (racking up 3,713,746 words in total, and with 26 stories over 100,000 words), because she is crazy/magic.

I finally finished that Watchmen minilist! For reals, it's hovered at seven fics of ten since 2010.

Also the first of my two planned femslash minis.

I think I might do a female-centric gen list? But I wanted to a female-centric list that included the Kanaya/Vriska VENGEANCE fic, so IDK. Doing both seems a bit much.

ETA: Too late! Now there's a female gen list. IDK IDK IDK.

ETA: Possibly someone might want links:

Superman Is Dead, 10 stories
I Loved Her (Sometimes She Loved Me, Too), 30 stories
Her Heart Is Hers, 15 stories

Huh. Normally I would be frantically cobbling together lists for another...hour and 37 minutes, but this year I'm not really feeling it. So I guess this is the wrap-up post?

Minilist: Where Would We Be (If I Were Yours) - The BDSM 'verse(s).

Minilist: We'll Be Someday - Jackie/Hyde fic.

Minilist: Nobody Loves You When You're Dead - Zombies.

Minilist: All Roads Lead - Marcus/Esca stories.

Minilist: Cherry - Virgins.

Minilist: Comforts Other Than Love - Gen.

I have totally fallen down on reccing, guys! And also my modly duties, but there are only so many times I can fix the same mistake in someone's tagging before I actually start trying to kill her with my mind, or just go crazy and turn off nonmod tagging, whatever.

But! There have been a few lists, and there will be more soon (Jackie/Hyde! Sherlock! My favorite het title ever!).

Minilist: Again/Before - Harry Potter time travel stories.

Sing We Joyous, All Together - Yuletide

Minilist: Combat Baby (Don't Go Quietly) - Terminator: the Sarah Connor Chronicles fic.

I posted a new Inception list, A Dream Is a Wish We Can Steal and I am filled with RECCING ENNUI. Like, fandom and you guys and the fic = all still awesome, but I keep escalating the challenges in my list50 yearly goals and I kind of don't know where to take it from here? Like, 100 rec lists, 150 rec lists, 5000 stories recced, those were cool milestones, but they're behind me, and if 250 fandoms isn't yet, I'm sure this year's Yuletide list will take care of it. I finished the hooker list that was taunting me for three years. I did the time travel list like I always wanted. For the last few years, I've always had some thing I wanted to accomplish before that all important 3/14 and this year I've got squat.

It's now three Inception lists? I've got bookmarks for five, easy, but no.

What is this fandom, honestly.

This Girl Is Taking Bets and I Get My Kicks Above the Waistline, Sunshine, female characters and gen, respectively. Admittedly, they were thrown together pretty quickly and the titles are literally the first semi-appropraite things I thought of, but hey! That is 100 stories down, only...436 to go.

Um. I'ma go work on that?

(Also, I am totally digging the random icon thing!)

I open up wordpad to work on posting those lists...and end up making a masterlist of list50's lists by theme. It does seem like it'll come in handy? There are several things where I went, WAIT, I only did three of those? Really? I keep forgetting 2007 was basically a lost year.

I was kind of surprised that I've done two death lists, though.

I am doing that thing again where I struggle with my definition of "small fandom". Because if you've ever seen one of my small fandom rec lists, you'll have seen not-actually-small fandoms on there, because for me small isn't defined by general popularity as much as it is by my own frequency of reccing (I would probably put a Due South story on a small fandoms list, for ex, because it's a big fandom, but it's not a big fandom for me - there was that one fling that can mostly be laid at TFV's doorstep and that was mostly it).

But a), I seem to default to doing small fandom lists and at this point I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to stop putting things like Hikaru no Go fic on them, because, uh, HnG fic on every sf list means a lot of HnG fic and therefore, no longer a small fandom; b) what I rec does not always equate to what I've read, especially in fandoms I've been in since before I started list50 in '06. So I think of SG-1 as one of my bigger fandoms, because it's a long-standing, significant fandom to me (as in, I was watching SG-1 pre-SGA and that was what led to me watching the very beginning of the spinoff and also getting to see the first, stumbling steps of Atlantis fandom, back when it basically consisted of 6 stories on Area 52, 5 of which were Sheppard/Ford)...but I have not actually recced it much, because of time/forgetfulness/lost bookmarks. So it might be a small fandom? But it won't go on a small fandom list.

Anyway, it mostly boils down to, White Collar is probably not one of my small fandoms, Leverage maybe is, Marvel comics squeaks through for now, and Generation Kill does not.

POSSIBLY I WILL JUST PROCRASTINATE UNTIL SUNDAY AND THEN HIT Y'ALL WITH MANY LISTS OF MANY THINGS ALL AT ONCE.

1. I LOVE THE BDSM 'VERSE. EVERY VERSION, FOR ALWAYS. WHERE IS THE MASTERLIST FOR THIS AWESOMENESS? MY VERY SOUL CRIES OUT FOR IT.

The BDSM 'verse, for those of you going WTF?, was originally created by Xanthe in The General and Dr. Sheppard (which I have some personal issues with), Coming Home (parts of which I ADORE, parts of which I have to scroll past very quickly, again because of personal stuff), and Hiding in Plain Sight (LOVE IT IN A VERY ID, VERY UNASHAMED WAY). In the 'verse, (nearly) everyone is bisexual and kinky as fuck, as in, they openly identify as dom or sub. There are heterosexuals, switches, and nondynamics, but they are very much in the minority. IT IS A SHARED 'VERSE, and gave rise Keira Marcos's Ties That Bind, aka, my very favoritest SGA fic AND one of my very favoritest kink fics (KINK COLLEGES! MID-SCENE HEALTH CHECKS! MAJOR CHARACTERS INVOLVED IN HET, FEMSLASH, SLASH, AND POLY, AND EVERY TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP IS TREATED EQUALLY RESPECTFULLY! OH, MY HEART! ♥♥♥). Keira's 'verse is slightly different, but it's on the same family tree, okay? Well, there are a lot of OTHER stories on that tree (the one where Rodney's a hooker! I LOVE THAT ONE) and every time I see one, I get very excited (I just found an ANGSTY NCIS ONE; HOPES ARE HIGH, Y'ALL).

Anyway, A++, DO RECOMMEND.

2. I am looking forward to August in perhaps an inappropriate way, because I have decided to make a tradition of last year's "amnesty month", aka, "fuck it, LINK DUMP TIME". (I am so close to actually making a post called Fuck It and filling it with 312 links, you guys don't even know, I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER *BEING* IN PRIMEVAL FANDOM AND YET HERE I AM, CODING LINKS FOR LIKE FOUR DIFFERENT PAIRINGS. Also making me flail in confusion: fairy tales, Jurassic Park, Liar Game, and Labyrinth (I HAVE NOT EVEN SEEN THAT SINCE I WAS SIX, WHY WAS I READING FIC?). I am like that telenovela-ish Bing commercial: "LOS LIIINKS!").

AUGUST: WHERE THE ONLY THEME IS "GET IT THE FUCK OFF MY COMPUTER".

3. I am having Big Bang Regrets, where I want to finish because yay for complements and a wider audience (progress, btw, is now at JESUS CHRIST IT'S A LION GET IN THE CAR!), yet I also don't want to finish? Because some of my favorite stories about ladies are a guy's POV on a lady/group of ladies, or het fics that are only 50-65% About the Lady (like, I am wavering about the Compelled 'verse, y'know, the "Illyria is awesome and decides to take over the multiverse" story, because the main POVs are Illyria, Buffy, and Wesley, and what if that's Too Much Dude?, even though it's a story primarily about women kicking ass?), and those are apparently not things I should be reccing for this? Basically, the rules of the challenge are kind of making me feel like some Bechdel fic does, like artificially erasing an entire gender from the conversation isn't any more awesome just because this time it's happening to the half with penises. I mean, lady-centric fic, YAY, but "lady in the spotlight" doesn't have to mean men are entirely absent from the stage. IDK, it's one of those things where it's a lot easier to strike that 75& balance writing than it is reccing, and also a lot easier if you do more femslash/gen and less het/threesomes, but I am reccing, and I do want to rec gen and femslash and het and threesomes*, and so I am cranky.

*Secret goal: more fem-centric poly always.

I AM NOT COMING BACK UNTIL I HAVE CODED THIS MESS.

...POSSIBLY YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN?

KNOW THAT I LOVED YOU TRULY, FANDOM!